Confused

At this moment in my life I'm feeling somewhat confused. I might have changed my mind about where I want my future to go. However, I feel like we live in a society of decisions and decision-makers. People who are still in the process of figuring out their life are just ignored until a decision is made. 


I have been on the decision-maker's side for most of my life. I have decided I wanted something, then I got it. Simple, right?

Well something has changed because decision have been harder and harder to make. I just keep seeing things that make more sense then my previous decision. Is this normal? Am I supposed to be THIS confused?

Thoughts on Thoughts

I hate sharing my thoughts. Sometimes it feels like my thoughts are having a wild party in my head, and the world is peering in getting a clear but fragmented picture. Other times it can feel like they are being pried from my mind and being inspected for science, which can be a very uncomfortable experience. Other times my thoughts feel like a precious commodity that the world is begging for (when this happens it's always a wonderful ego boost), others times they feel like a dirty piece of trash wanted by no one.


In all these situations, I feel like something is being taken from me without my permission. I have lost my choice.