Confused

At this moment in my life I'm feeling somewhat confused. I might have changed my mind about where I want my future to go. However, I feel like we live in a society of decisions and decision-makers. People who are still in the process of figuring out their life are just ignored until a decision is made. 


I have been on the decision-maker's side for most of my life. I have decided I wanted something, then I got it. Simple, right?

Well something has changed because decision have been harder and harder to make. I just keep seeing things that make more sense then my previous decision. Is this normal? Am I supposed to be THIS confused?

Thoughts on Thoughts

I hate sharing my thoughts. Sometimes it feels like my thoughts are having a wild party in my head, and the world is peering in getting a clear but fragmented picture. Other times it can feel like they are being pried from my mind and being inspected for science, which can be a very uncomfortable experience. Other times my thoughts feel like a precious commodity that the world is begging for (when this happens it's always a wonderful ego boost), others times they feel like a dirty piece of trash wanted by no one.


In all these situations, I feel like something is being taken from me without my permission. I have lost my choice.

New Beginnings?

I'm never sure about beginnings. Why must we start over all the time? Why isn't the focus on the journey down the road of life. I just know that every "beginning" I've ever had was just a bend in the road, not a crossroads. In fact, it's always been the small decisions that have created the biggest shift for the future.